Sometimes, I felt that love is useless, just bringing me
pain. Sometimes I quarelled with baby and always ended up screaming or even
asking for a break up. Each time after I let go, I regretted. And in the end, I
love him, just so much that I really want to get back together, make everything
better and overcome everything together.
I've learnt this : I won't let go of love, till I have to. (:
School been rather fine. Lesser fun than sec 2, with 2e3. Miss 2e3 so much! :/. Speaking which, I can't wait for saturday class outing. (: I miss 2e3 espacially all the girls. (: But at least, chinese class was better. Although it wasn't with 2E3 people, I saw more people who I'm familiar with. (:
But anyway, I'm going crazy, all thanks to maths. It's driving me crazy with all those calculations, formulars, rules and things like that. Got to study hard orelse I won't be able to catch up. :/. And, worse still, I failed my very first Amaths test, so much for boosting up my motivation and confidence in maths. 4/10. But, oh well, it was my own fault anyway. I gave up the test by not doing the last question as I got a bad headache, haha.
CCA open house tomorrow. (:
Oh and baby reminded me that valentine day is just exactly one month away, haha. (: I think, he's hinting me to save up for his valentine day present, haha.
I miss my girlfriends.
Below words are for baby, so just skip it, haha. (:
Goodnight, lovelies. (:
Baby, I believe there are times when I scream
and I hurt you badly with my words.
I'm sorry.
But I don't deny, those words are what I really do felt,
but still, I'm sorry baby.
Each time after I said those words, I could see you reflecting,
and trying your best to change even though it's tough.
I love you, a lot.
I know I often throw temper on you.
And I can feel how much you tried to control yourself
and to cheer me up, instead of screaming back at me.
There are times when I think you are just simply ridiculous
and I think you just purely trying to make me unhappy
and trying to make my life tough.
But, you just seem to be always there, for me.
You always try your best to cheer me up,
always trying your best to change,
always trying your best to be understanding.
Believe me, I really love you a lot.
I will be a better girlfriend, I promise.
Without those bad temper. (:
I love you baby.
We may not be a compatible couple or the sweetest couple, we may not suit each other. But, I love you.
The below lyrics help me to say those words that I want to tell baby. (: Haha.
Lyrics (hold on):
They say love is give and take.
after time your heart was mine to break.
so if you think of packing up and leaving,
Every time we have a disagreement,
I take the blame its my mistake.
When you feel like giving up,
Feel like its too much,
Feel like you had enough,
You gotta hold on to me.
Just hold on to me
Just hold on
And when your heart is gonna break up,
Take my hand before you fall,
Promise I'll pull you up.
You gotta hold on to me,
You dont have to let go of love,
I really dont know what else to say.
The thought of you gone ruins my day.
So, baby, I just want to tell you that, you mean so much to me. (:
And, I know it has been long before I say this,
"Happy anniversary baby."
